thanxs 2010, u've been very good to me.

now that 2010 has come to end, i have to say something about it don't I?

2010 was not as bad as 2009. it was an ok year. at least its not as heartbreaking as last year right? if 2009 is a year of heartbreak then 2010 is the year of healing.

lets recap a little bit on what 2010 had been about. (not on chronological order)

1. older sister getting married

2. i passed all my exams (really thought that i'm not gonna make it)

3. met and fall in love with O&G

4. went to genting, finally! (vow to self to not come there again ever, after!)

5. became a K-POP freak (ashame of it sometimes but what the hell). i already cured fr this disease. now i'm only a K-drama freak. lol

6. 2010 is the year of avatar. greatest movie ever made.

7. it is also a year of inception. best movie ever. period.

8. first time watching movie in 3D o yeah.

9. watched malay pun cerita hantu, what the fuss about kak limah wei? still not my cup of tea. even though some scenes were really funny.

10. decided that i will give up on dieting. lets face it, i will not succeed in this ever. HAHAHA

11. Its the year of SECRET GARDEN. anybody who hasn't watch this series, is missing a lot i promise! hyun bin and ha ji won are really2 good actors!

12. books. what book i read this year? finally get to read jd salinger; catcher in the rye. its so hard to find a good book lately, and also i dont have that much money to buy any anyway. but recently bought ice cream girls by dorothy koomson. very good book. other than that, i re-read books that i had read before. like the kite runner. and curious incident of the dog in a night-time. and the chocolate run for the 4th or 5th time. etc etc

13. i discovered james morrison and fall in love instantly with his music.

14. ruby finally succeeded in giving birth to 3 kittens yg berbulu tebal.

15. spain won the world cup!

16. and malaysia won the AFF suzuki cup!

17. went to sibu! nice city.

err... thats about it la kot? cant think of anything anymore.

Lets hope that 2011 will be even better and full of happiness. Amin.

I now welcome you 2011.

p/s: hopefully in 2011 i have the title Dr. in front of my name. Amin. do pray for me!

movies....

1. Wild Target.
One word: fucking awesome. Ok that's two words. I downloaded this movie because of Rupert Grint (big fan of Ronald Weasley, ehem ehem. and HP7 is coming very very soon). I watched this during my study week, can't resist the temptation. lol. It is hilarious and has awesome soundtrack. There's this one song, from Regina Spektor, 'the hotel song' and i remember recommending the song to some friends when i was still in Dublin. Really bring back memories of Dublin. I tried to find the whole soundtrack but i cant, and too lazy to download the songs one by one. heh. And Emily Blunt. Oh Emily Blunt! She's damn charming and beautiful. **spoiler alert** The one thing that doesn't really work out for me is the movie doesn't show clearly how Emily Blunt fall in love with Mr. Maynard. But overall the movie is awesome and fun.







2. Buried.

We watched this last Friday for our sort-of-congratulatory-party. And i know how lots of people hated this movie and said its boring. But for me, honestly its a good one. Maybe a-lil-bit-of awesome. But not fucking awesome. So what makes it a-lil-bit-awesome? No 1, because the director chose to shoot the entire movie in the coffin, doesn't have any scene that shows outside world. Not even for one second. And they only have Ryan Reynold as the actor. Other character was only introduced by their voice (but there's a scene where they show Pamela Lutti on video, but that's only for a few seconds, so it doesn't count). No 2, the so-damn-awesome ending. No 3. Ryan Reynold. haha. I like him a lot since The Proposal. Oh wait.. maybe from Two Guys and A Girl. No actually..its from way before, from when the sitcom was initially called Two Guys, A Girl and a Pizza Place. Anyway the movie is not for everybody i guess, so prepare to be bored if this movie is just not your kind of thing.





3. Wall Street.
I can't remember how long ago i watched this, but the movie is boring for me. I wonder why so many people gave a good review of this movie.





4. The Life As We Know It.
I decided to watch this because of Katherine Heigl! And Josh Duhamel! It's a fun watch really.

final med

i am officially a final med now. wohoooo~


and guess what? im going to be in kuching for the next 9 weeks. :D

on crappy day like this, i miss u

i miss u. but i dont know if i say i miss u to you and u dont say it back i'll stop missing u. and because of that, i cant say i miss u. but i do!

sad

i'm sad. n tired. k bai.

i'm just saying 2

anyway my post earlier in 'im just saying' seems hanging so im going to continue a little bit on my rant.

anyway continuing on about the kind of life that i want to live, deep down i might still hope that i can live like that someday but truthfully i just didn't see it will come true. because as you grow older, your responsibility get bigger. so all the bullshit that you seem to believe earlier when your young seems to fade. about living for yourself and not for someone else. that's just bullshit. you know that you can't live alone and just abandone your responsibility as a daughter, as a sister, as a grandaughter, as a friend, as a citizen and the list goes on.

so im just saying im fucked. haha ok get back to study. oh how i hate medicine now.

i'm just saying

i whined a lot when i was in dublin. i was bored. bored with medicine, and bored with my set of friends back then that i think dont know how to enjoy life. (seriously, have u ever befriend a medic student? they can be pretty boring esp. during exam period. but what the hell, im also am like that. i cut all communication with outside world during exam period)

i remember one summer when i came back from dublin i was really keen on quitting medicine. because i thought at the time i was seeing the bigger picture of life. because i thought at that time i dont want to be a cliche. that is get my degree, be a doctor, get married and have kids. i just want to be an anti-cliche. i want to travel around the world, not just travel, but actually living in the country for a while, make money from being a waitress in small coffee shop, and during weekend i'll walk and walk and taking pictures of the place. and ready to leave again when i have enough money to purchase a plane ticket for my next destination. that's the kind of life that i want. because i believe that life is something that u should enjoy. and u should live for yourself and not for anybody else. (funny when i think of this, japan always popped into my head)

but who am i kidding? i can never live like that kan?

and now i think studying is just not my thing. sure, i get ok result (by ok i mean low average. haha) but for the studying part? its just not a do-able thing for me. i cant study. or i wont study? im not sure which one is it, cant or wont.

review filem: MAGIKA *no spoiler, i promise*

i never planned to watch magika actually but last week a friend from India came to visit and because we dont know where to go to here in penang so we decided to go to movie instead. ok lah to be honest i actually did want to go watch magika but the desire wasnt that strong.

why i want to watch magika in the first place?
reason no 1. its a musical! i have a thing for musical ok. (i love high school musical and its not only because of zac efron, damn he's hot. and camp rock?? totally lovin' it! and sell out, and hindi movies? does that count? hehe)
2. because its malay version of alice in wonderland.
3. because its different and i like different. (eventhough i rarely watch malay movie, i watched pisau cukur (solely because of fazura) and setem (because its different!)

BUT... because there's mawi in the cast as BAD (lol), it kind of draw me back. besides there's wall street showing.

anyway im so glad i watched it! eventho at that time i realli want to watch wallstreet instead. the story is very simple, but the movie as a whole, is FUCKING AWESOME. i dont really like diana's acting but she's allright. at least she's better than mawi. i think mawi improved but heck how would i know if i never watch any of his movie before. but he wasnt that bad. but not good either. other characters are all awesome i think. especially ziana zain.

and the songs. edry is such a musical genius. all the songs are very pleasant to ear. and my favorite song/scene is when diana and pak pandir singing and then later joined by mak andeh. so cute and funny and so musical like!

lastly, i love it how its so colourful in the magika land. damn beautiful. the colour of the grass, of maya's clothes, the sky seems so vivid and clear. love it!

satu tahun

i miss u too much these few days. too much that i feel like stalking ur fb but i didnt. i feel like texting or calling but i cant. im scared that u'll hate me if i do so. (and also because i lost ur no. heh)

i dreamt of you yesterday morning. and i was actually happy because we were ok again but then i get up (because i have to pee) and then i realized it was just a dream and after a year (almost) i still miss u too damn much.

first time i fall in love

i was watching prosecutor princess, and there was this scene that prosecutor yoon asked prosecutor jun to marry him using a rabbit soft toy that can sing 'will u marry me bla bla bla...' and attached to the rabbit red muffler (rabbit is using muffler you see) is a ring.

i remember few years back i bought a soft toy. it was white and have a big heart at the centre and when u press the heart it let out phrase 'i love you'. hee so tacky. :D

but of course i never gave the person that i like at the time that thing. im too shy to do so. but that was the first time that i bought a present for someone that i like. u know that feeling, shy, excited but embarrassed at the same time. its the first time i ever felt like that.

oh well im too naive at the time. ;P


p/s: happy ramadhan! :)

i havent blog for so long

1. i havent blog for so long. just finished paeds exam last friday. and im still recovering from feeling traumatized by the short case exam. i think i did okay in eliciting signs but the description part im totally out. and for the second case till today i still cant get the diagnosis for the syndrom that the child have. lets just pray hard that i passed the exam because i dont feel like going back to do it once more.

2. now im doing psychiatry rotation. i dont like it. i spend most of the time during the lecture playing games with my phone. i cant help it, either i feel very sleepy or i feel bored. but the drug lecture just now is quite ok. but i always like pharmacology anyway so it doesnt mean that im starting to like psych.

3. ok i am now very sleepy but i still want to go on typing crap.

4. i just bought new shawl grey in colour just now. and it is so pretty. its cotton. i feel pretty wearing it. haha

5. i went into borders just now. havent been into it for a veryyyyy long time. i fucking like borders. mixed emotion i had just now. feel like crying, happy but sad at the same time, elated maybe with wild euphoria as well. because borders is just toooo aweeesooommeee. too fucking awesome that i feel like living there for the rest of my life. even better if i can work there. i dont mind commute from pulau tikus to queensbay everyday if i can work there. anyway i found something really awesome just now at borders. i found kokoro by natsume soseki. it is one of my favorite book ever. and i've been looking the book in english for years. YEARS ok. and i finally found it! of course i didnt buy it because i dont have the money. its fucking expensive rm 63 for a normal size paperback. can u imagine buying a paperback for rm63? its new translation!!!!!!!!!! 2010 punya edition. this dicovery is fucking epic. hoho exaggerate much? lol i dont care. anyway i read kokoro in malay when i was in KMB and its like one of the best novel that i've ever read. i fucking love it. eventho it was a malay translation back then and it is for our malay literature class. but still it was awesome! i want it i want it i want it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont think i can sleep tonight coz im too excited about it.

6. im starting to read again. ive stopped for quite some time and i think the last novel that i read is catcher in the rye by jd salinger. a very very good book.

7. i cant find my books the curious incident of a dog in night time and a thousand of splendid suns. did anybody borrow it from me?

8. ok dah malas nak pk and tulis and edit this thing. bye. gudnite.

heart murmur

i got the right diagnosis of a heart murmur today! at last. Happy to the moon. :D


p/s: and Dr. Koh praised me as 'pandai'. happy to the moon! ;D
pp/s: in fact he said, 'dah lame x jumpe student pandai macam ni'. did i mention that im happy to the moon? ;D

team basikal

saya mahu team basikal sendiri! hoho one more year.. one more year and hopefully by then i will have my own team! and we will cycle around the city during the night. lol

p/s: my o & g results came out today. eventho i expected the mark to be that way, why am i still sad?

shaken

i have not think of you for so long. the thought of you have not crossed my mind at all lately. but today my happy state got shaken up because of one dream. and you have been on my mind ever since.

oh well, i'll allow it just for today. just for today.


p/s: so lazy to go to school. i demand a month holiday during this world cup season!
pp/s: and i just want to go home...

season finale spoiler alert!!!

and the winner for the best season finale goes to:
actually its a tie between private practice and grey's anatomy.

private practice recap:
cooper and charlotte is engage!!!!
dell died when everyone is focusing on maya and her baby. that is too cruel for betsy. cant stop crying watching this finale. :(
addison and pete are finished. and pete and violet are together again? and finally sam and addi are together. i hate it! i love pete and addi!! huu

grey's anat recap:
meredith's pregnant! and later had a miscarriage. sad :(
derek was shot!
cristina and owen and teddy. yawn. move on please? i want cristina to be with jackson? lol
mark and lexie and alex. another yawn.
bailey and mandy moore (cant remember the character's name) and charlie? (cant remember the mercy west doc also) sad and very good scene!!!
reed died too fast and it was fucking crazy. head shot! dem i'm so traumatized by this.
and arizona and callie are back together again. well im not a fan of lesbian scene. why dont they make a gay scene next season? lol

yawn season finale:
house and gossip girl.

house:
fat embolism? hoho i kinda expect it.
and house and cuddy are together now. and it just dont work out for me. cuddy didnt really show that she actually like house.
and wats up with thirteen? huntingtons setting in is it?
big yawn this finale.

gossip girl:
chuck and blair ooh.. chuck was shot. but dont worry i read from the spoiler that he will not died, he will definitely came back next season. and she didnt get to hear the proposal! dem yu jenny humphrey. im so glad that you will be gone for a very long time. what a bitch. and oh yea, georgina is pregnant. and i really hope that they just let serena to settle down. nate-dan-dan-nate-nate-dan??? make up ur mind woman. and wadefak with dan? he likes serena again?? so twisted and fucked up. i hate gossip girl!!!!!!! maybe i'll stop watching next season. its too ridiculous.

and now i have to finish my case write up. lol

p/s: the only reason i hate summer is because all the series will stopped airing for 3 months and i was left with no series to watch now. :(
pp/s: no. of series watched this season is cut down to 5. i let so many series go. sigh. been busy. :(
ppp/s: the 5th one is glee. ;)

teacher's day

happy teacher's day to the surgeon in a purple shirt.


p/s: my uncle past away early this morning. hope the family will be strong during this difficult period. al fatihah.

of dying (and death)

my uncle is very sick. dying. and i dont know what to do. or what to say. im always bad with this sort of things. i really dont know what to say to his family, to my sister, or to my mom when they told me about him.

my sister and i have a lot of conversation about him. and i never felt comfortable talking about it. that sometimes my reply seems a little bit cold because its too fact-ful and realistic. i wish im better at this.

hard time

at a hard time like this i wish that clock will just stop ticking and the world will just stop moving. and i want to be stuck here at present time forever, cant go backward and refusing to move forward.

random secret #2

i've been here in penang for one year+ but up till today i never had penang laksa.

vocab for today

Winkle Pickers.

of anger

dont know whether its the bad sate that i ate at padang brown just now, or whether because i had my period or whether it is because i feel shy towards dr megat because i told him the wrong topic for today's teaching just now, today i feel less angry.

random secret #1

occasionally at random times i put hujan feat. raihan's raya song in my wmp playlist and listen to it eventho its not raya season. -.-

a letter to a 14 year old me

dear 14 year old sheila,

as you grow older, u will find that some things doesnt occur as you thought it will be. u will came across few things that u never thought will happened, and few things that u never think will affect you deeply, things that you thought you hate but only later to find that you love it.

you always think of Paris and Eiffel tower as cliche and only for hopeless romantic and when people say they want to visit Paris you wanted to puke your stomach out. but only later you know that it is actually romantic and breathtaking and it will be one of your favourite city. and Eiffel is so magnificent that your heart literally stop for a few seconds when u saw it for the first time. (eventhough it is only made of steel).

you always thought that you are a forgiving person but you only realize at age 23 that actually you are not. and when you were hurt deeply it takes a very long time for the scar to heal.

you always thought that you wanted to be a surgeon. and when you enter surgical rotation you actually believe that surgery is your soul mate. but then you havent met obs and gynae at that time. and you always thought that obs and gynae is the 2nd biggest cliche after paris and you will only realize that you actually like obs and gynae a bit too much once you enter 2nd week of your obs and gynae rotation. you like it too much that sometimes it hurts. (lol) and you realize that babies are beautiful and they dont look like a one day old mice at all. and you will also realize that you dont want to give birth by caesarian section because you worry that you might die due to pulmonary embolism because its too painful after that you dont want too move at all.

you will never thought that you actually cannot drive manual car. and the fact that you will only get your license when you're 20, not 17 like you always thought.

and the most shocking thing is that you hate learning mandarin eventhough it has always been your dream to learn it. you'll hate it so much that you feel like crying everytime you want to go to mandarin class.

you will never believe it but you will actually get a chance to study abroad. before this every time you saw the salam perantauan column in newspapers during raya season you always said that you want to study abroad but even then you never really thinking about it. and what you did not expect the most is the fact that you dont have a really good time there and you were miserable almost all the time.

you will never believe it when i say that you will eventually evolve from an extrovert to an introvert.

thats all i can think about now. i shall write to you again once im wiser and older. hahaha take care of yourself and just bear with school. i know how much you hate it.

p/s: skip clasess as much as you want because you will never get into trouble from it.

love,
a 24 year old you.

how can u be so good looking???

p/s: my obsession these days. the one that makes me HAPPY. the one that keep me sane. ;)

jerry yan yg sgt kacak bila memakai baju pejabat.

i'm happy(ier)!!!

:D

p/s: good-looking actors really make me happy. lol

tengah malam layan lagu korea memang feel

i seriously have no idea how to write a discussion for the survey that we conducted last month. seriously no idea.

rasa nak nangis pun ada.

and im keeping my fingers cross so that the health promotion campaign this Thursday is a success. please. especially the pap smear test. pretty please.

stress.


p/s: lapar. stupid diet. can i just stop now? i dont really need to be thin.

life update

i need a new phone because this one i have keep dying on me. actually you know what i dont really need a phone since i dont use it that much. so new phone can wait. so if u cant contact me, it is not im ignoring you alrite. contact me via fb! hehe

and also i will be finishing with public health in 1 week time. after that i will be doing O&G. babies here i come!

ok thats all. babai

p/s: im 78.5 kg now. have exactly one month to lose another 5.5 kg.

public health (is why im very busy)

im doing public health rotation now. its a 8 week course, and i just finished the 5th week. have 3 more weeks to go. first two weeks is all about lecture, third week is all about planning the survey, 4th week is conducting the community survey in teluk bahang, and now i am currently attach to district health office (DHO) in seberang perai utara district for two weeks.

im not going to talk much about teluk bahang, i dont really enjoyed the whole thing, because i dont really like talking to people and all. but that was a different story. but dont get me wrong, there are still a few things that i like about teluk bahang, especially the villagers, they are super nice. (just that me myself dont like to talk) and also we get to ride the boat and there's glowing sand, really bring back redang's memory. i miss redang!

now what i really want to talk about is about the DHO posting. this week my group were attached to environmental health unit. and that unit is further divided to other smaller units. there are CDC, BAKAS, KMAM, FQC, KPAS, vector unit etc. and this last week had been so much fun and we really learn a lot. A LOT. hoho

and i personally think that what BAKAS do is the most interesting. BAKAS is bekalan air dan kesihatan persekitaran. and i want to share this because its not really medical stuff, but more towards taking care of health by improving the environment. basically what BAKAS do is:
1. water supply (bekalan air)
2. pour toilet (tandas curah)
3. sullage water management (sistem pelupusan air limbah)
4. solid waste management (sistem pelupusan sisa pepejal)

about the water supply, not many people know this, but there are still lots of people out there who cant afford to get the clean water supply. and what bakas do is giving subsidy to others who need the clean water because apparently to set up the system for getting clean water supply will cost at least rm2000. furthermore they also build toilet to those who doesnt have any toilet at their home. (and we went to this one village and there is this one toilet that bakas built, and the bakas officer said there is currently 5 family using that very same toilet. can u imagine that? dont you think that our life is too good to be true compare to them?) and it is the same for the sullage water and solid waste management, they set up better system to manage those so that people can live in clean environment. clean environment, better health. dont you think what those people did is very noble? i seriously was moved. hohoho more reasons to serve the public!



p/s: we managed to go for fogging yesterday. once in a lifetime experience!

hating the present time

now, the present time is officially sucks because i cant buy books whenever i want. because lately i've found so much good books to read but i cant afford them. it sucks big time.



p/s: if God willing, i want to go to redang island again. and hopefully can still meet the tour guide badrul, because we the ungrateful guest didnt get to say goodbye to him and i am still feeling guilty for that.

busy as a bee

i've been very busy. well actually im not that busy, (maybe not yet) but all the driving and moving around had made me very tired and hence, i feel busy. wait wait not feel busy, i am busy. lol anyway im in the process of moving on from my life. and i have taken another big step and hence nowadays i feel so restless (and again, makes me busy). im in the process of changing my number. but changing my number is a very big step. it means that im going to really say goodbye to (some) people. and i keep thinking whether its right or whether im ready. because after this, it really is goodbye. and goodbye is a sad thing. yeah so i've been restless this few days. and my leg still hurt and it still woke me up from my sleep every night. and it also the cause of my inactivity nowadays and it makes me feel guilty because i dont work out at all. and i also need to keep myself motivated to lose weight. new target now is 73 before 28/4 because i have appointment with my dietitian that day. i have a lot in my mind. huhu

i've always telling others how i am a selfish person. and i really believe that i am a selfish person. but i am also a pleaser. i tend to please people. i keep thinking because i am such a selfish person, i need to be unselfish. and i keep wanting to make everybody happy. but what makes their happy make me miserable. but i keep doing it, because i am such a pleaser. i once think that i have to finish a very crappy dinner at this one stall just because i dont want the cashier (who has been very nice to us everytime we ate there) to feel unhappy because i dont finish my food. thats how bad this sickness of pleasing people that i have. and now im thinking i want to stop. i want to be able to say no firmly, without feeling afraid of hurting others. but it is such a hard thing to do. but im gonna try. sigh. why is life so difficult and twisted.

ps: i miss baby blair
pps: i want coffee really bad.

my perfect day

it should start with coffee. or having a breakfast at mcd(with coffee). and then a stroll in a park. lunch. next is spending hours in a bookshop reading books. then tea. finito


p/s: i want to try hiking. cant wait! cepatla sembuh kaki ku (yang pendek).

blue

im still trying to get the dieting thing going on. other than that im practically doing nothing. cant swim, cant jog. i did try swimming yesterday for half an hour, and later at night the pain keep me from sleeping well. the pain is so bad today that i need to buy myself ponstan.

im feeling hateful right now. im full of hate. other than hate, i feel empty. i guess im a bit depressed. but i dont know why im depressed. anyhow i think all of these will go away soon. but now, im just going to stay low and be lazy and be silent.


p/s: happy birthday to kingdom!

i really really hate dieting.

i started dieting (is this the correct term for it? i think so. lol) 39 days ago. 39 days ago i weigh 86kg. and as for today i weigh 82kg. and i swear 2 days ago i was 80.5!!

dieting is a very very frustating process. sigh. its like once u hit 82, and that was it, u cant lose any weight anymore. dem! i keep fluctuating around 82, 83, and 81. shiiitttt! its like the weighing scale is playing a little game with me just to annoy me.

and this week, my motivation is a little bit low. and i think it is because of the karipap. karipap kafe sgt sedap. hehehe the day before i ate one. yesterday i ate one. today i ate 2! fucking karipap keep seducing me. and i started to think about food again. and i started to feel hungry again. before this i was fine. i was very motivated, keep my diet right, and i work out too! every single day. sigh. maybe i should jog again instead of swim.

anyway i was texting my sister last night asking her when she's coming to penang so that she can buy me all the delicious foods. and her reply was 'stop thinking abt food. will make u hungrier' and i was like ' i cant' and she replied again 'u can! think abt those pretty clothes that u cannott fit into' and i told her 'but i dont like clothes as much as i like food' which is very very true. i love foods. and books. lol

and now im craving for breeks's mash potato. its the best mash potato! really!

and i just came back from mior's b'day party and now im 83 again. told ya that weighing scale playing game with me. waaaddeeeefffaaakkk...

why dont u just shoot me now.

thaipusam

towards a healthy lifestyle

today, every time dr rashid mention the word overnutrition, its like a stab into my heart. lol

therefore my goal this year is to be fit. short term goal is to be able to jog from end to end of gurney drive without stopping. long term goal is to be fit during housemanship years so that i didnt cry because of over-exhaustion. lol

i need a running shoes. for the person that steal my running shoes, i curse you.


p/s: dr rashid is the new public health head of department. he is such a good lecturer and for that i am very grateful because public health is torture. ;P

because i believe in karma

to: all backstabbers, haters, liars out there

sometimes people said or did something that really hurts you. make you feel helpless, sad, angry. and you cant sleep at night because of that something that he/she did to you. but you know what? i dont give a fuck anymore. because starting from now on, people that keep screwing me over and over are just irrelevant to me now. you are irrelevant. so im not going to waste my time feeling anything about what you did or said to me.

screw all of you, because even though i can be a bit selfish sometimes, but i am a good person. and i never hurt anybody. not intentionally at least. but people keep hurting me. and that is just fucking unfair. its like that im the only person that believe in karma. and all of you dont. thats why you keep hurting people isnt it? and even when all of you screwing me over and over and over again, even then i keep my mouth shut. i keep it to myself. and i dont even know why i did that. to protect this so-called friendship i guess.

argghhh i cant do this anymore. if you people are my friend, why are you this cruel? jeopardizing my relationship with my family. posting something about me in fb and then let others sent hate-comments about me. calling me a psychopath in your blog. and you call yourself a friend? shame on you!

so now i want you ask all of you this, what i've ever done to you? think about it really hard. what i've ever done to you? WHAT I'VE EVER DONE TO YOU?? did i murder someone in your family or something? did i?

and for your info, nothing that you did will take away my good night sleep from me. maybe you should try harder.

live long and prosper

i watched star trek 2 days ago. and oh i fucking love it! i remember a while back when the movie was out, i told everybody that im not going to watch the movie, no matter how awesome it is. at that time, i believed that if i can fight my curiosity just once in my life, i win. me against the world, and i won.

lately, often that i went to movie not because i really want to watch it, but because the review is good. you see, i am a very very curious person. i want to know what the big fuss is all about. take 2012 for example, everybody is telling me about how good the movie was, and as a curious person, i fall into that big conspiracy?/scam?/trap?. (lol) turned out that movie wasnt that good, just mediocre. its a good entertainment, ill give it that, but its lack of the storyline, and predictable, have bad actors and bad script.

and the latest fuss in town is about avatar. did i ever tell you how much i hate sci-fi? and i initially never want to watch avatar, but again as a curious person, i went to watch it. and i think its fucking awesome!

anyway this bring me back to the point, which is that maybe, just maybe i dont hate sci-fi. after all, i love star wars very much. and now i love star trek too! live long and prosper!




p/s: i used to have a friend that when i say may 'the force be with you', he understood right away i was talking about star wars. and i missed that friend when watching star trek the other day.

avatar

so today once again me and the housemates went hunting for avatar 3-d tickets. we actually wish to watch it today but of course when we arrived there tickets for today's show has all been sold out. and so for monday night. (didnt bother to ask for tomorrow. heh) so we have to settle for tuesday, 3pm show.


p/s: weather in dublin is horrible. the temperature up to > -10 C. crazy! somehow i think if i was there i will not survive. i can barely breathe at -2 C. hoho and because of that prof cusack said all the schools in dublin are closed until next thursday.
pp/s: madness isnt it? more reason why we should save the environment! recycle people, recycle!

quick update

so i put back almost all the old entries back in this blog. i deleted some entries that i think irrelevant to present time though. i dont write as much now that im back in malaysia. its because im getting busier and also life is uneventful here in penang. and maybe also because i dont feel anything. im going numb. i mean you cant write if you dont feel right?

watch avatar yesterday. AWESOME gila babi babi babi nak mampus. i feel like crying watching that movie purely because of it's awesomeness. and i actually willing to spend rm17 to watch it in 3d version but sadly the hall is full. so have to settle for 2d. but still, awesome ok.

im going home again on the 19th! fuh fuh im celebrating my bday at home this year. esaited! of all the birthdays that i had, last year is the most memorable one for me. because i celebrated it all alone. walking around dublin looking for a gift, watching slumdog millionaire, eating 2 scoops of ben n jerry, browsing books at eason and end up buying 3 books. love it! i love doing stuff alone.

anyhow now i dont have that much freedom. cant use the car or else somebody will get pissed. there's always somebody. and i hate it when people crossed with me so i stayed home. not that i care that much as i dont have money to spend anyway. heh

yeah and the new year is going super.

snow is white

i heard its snowing again in dublin. so i browse through my friend's list in facebook looking for pictures. but sadly i cant find one. (but maybe it is also due to my lack of friends in my friend's list. lol)

i like snow. i like it when its white all over. (but i hate cold) so i envy people in dublin right now who can gaze the snow falling from the sky.


p/s: i hope i can touch the snow again. amin.

baby blair, ruby and the kittens(gen 2) and billy (jean)

p/s: baby blair sgt comel skati jak tido rah cney2.
pp/s: billy (jean) itu bukan kucing keluarga Daud. soon mungkin. soon. (kidnap dia cepat!) lol

snippet of end of the year holiday

* gambar tidak mengikut kronologi

1. i did learn the rubiks and can solve it.
2. i did went swimming and of course i didnt wear sunscreen.
3. i didnt manage to paint.
4. i didnt manage to finish EM portfolio.
5. i know i'm lazy. overall my holiday is a bit uneventful, but very relaxing. i stayed home most of the time playing with baby blair and watching streaming leverage. and eat lots of durian. and get fat.


p/s: fatin amira, kmk dh tgk sherlock holmes! and i think its BRILLIANT!!

2009

overall, you SUCK!



welcome 2010. bring it on!