my weight is 82 kg and im obese and my legs is short. somebody please do an intervention on me.

i need to see a dietitian. today we did BMI and waist:hip ratio. i am officially an obese now. and my waist:hip ratio is also not in normal range. so im in trouble now. macam wadefak la kan. so im going to see a dietitian for real this time. (i was planning to see dietitian last summer but i thought i was doing ok, so i changed my mind)

my tutor andii (is that how u spell her name? i dont know. haha) anyway she said she wants to see me in the normal range in 6 months time. hoho im in deep shit now kan? before this i always thought its ok to be a bit overweight as long as ur healthy and exercise regularly. regular la sangat saya pergi exercise kan. hahahahaha ok thats not funny. im scared.

i really need to stop consuming poisonous drink that they include in mcdonald value meal. shitness lah, coke is do sedap that i can finish the large coke by myself now, and i went to mcdonald like what? 2 to 3 times every week? i really need to discipline myself to avoid any soft drinks from now on. wait, starbucks is not a softdrink kan?


p/s: why is that one of my groupmate actually perceives me as bubbly and cheerful girl? and i thought i am always dark and bitter! hmm...

saya dah jumpa dia. tp dia bukan prince charming. macam yang saya bayangkan.

siapa dia? dia ialah ini

grey area

i see things as white and black. i dont believe in grey area. what wrong is wrong, and what right is right. there is no in between.

i think everybody should have a better self control and dont be greedy. admit it u cant have it all.

sometimes u have to choose even though making decision is hard. like i said, if u can stop being greedy, u will have a clear mind of what to choose.

like what my father said, in life u cant afford making too many mistakes. and i truly believe that. thats why before i did anything stupid i always think about what he said. and it will stop me from doing it.

even though some may see me as a no-fun person, not adventurous, bla bla bla. what the heck people, im trying to be perfect here. ;D so now u know why i dont do this, i dont do that.

i dont want to have any regret. i dont want to encounter any episodes when i look back at my life in the future i found that im ashamed with myself. always remember all ur actions will have consequences. eventhough some people said u will learn from ur mistakes, but i say; if u can do it right, why would u want to make any mistakes?



p/s: surgery rotation dah habis. yay! :D

about friendship

i dont have lots of friends. most of the people that i mingle with nowadays are my classmates. i dont see classmates as friends because after school i dont get in touch with them. not even during holiday. they are sort of like part-time friends. u see them at school, u talk, then after school u go separate ways and thats the end of it.

at the age of 23, i think making new friends is just unnecessary. exhausting even. i think socializing is exhausting, i cant handle too many people at a time. some of them will slip away.

but now when i dont have any classmates/friends who can signed my attendance for me when i have to skip class, without asking any questions i kind of wonder am i really that hateful (hence i dont have that kind of friend)? or is it because the people around me are just bunch of uptight bitches??

:(

sigh.

saya penat.

i need to go jogging.

can i just quit medicine now?? like realli realli quit?

everytime i listen to lenka, i think of dublin. lenka was probably my best friend back then in dublin. she was there during my bus journey back home, during my window shopping, in lecture hall while waiting for lecture to start.

is it just me or lagu lenka memang bernada sedih? because i feel sad everytime i listen to it now.



p/s: i went to OT today, saya pakai scrubs itu terbalik. poket kat belakang. rofl. ok kamu boleh gelakkan saya beramai2 sekarang.
pp/s: boleh kan kalau saya nak berhenti belajar? i dont have passion for it anymore. :(

satu juta

haha tomok dah menang satu juta. bila lagi nak melamar ai?

The rule of 3.

i have this rule that i invent for myself. the rule of 3. i will try 3 times, and then if its not meant to be then i will let go.

i have tried 3 times, but i guess its just not meant to be.

i get ur answer already, and i respect that.

so u are now deleted from my phone book. hahaha

i think im a lil bit sad.



p/s: byk org brekap lately, im sad for them. n for myself too.
pp/s: i think i need a cigarette now. or prozac. or new shoes.