tengah malam layan lagu korea memang feel

i seriously have no idea how to write a discussion for the survey that we conducted last month. seriously no idea.

rasa nak nangis pun ada.

and im keeping my fingers cross so that the health promotion campaign this Thursday is a success. please. especially the pap smear test. pretty please.

stress.


p/s: lapar. stupid diet. can i just stop now? i dont really need to be thin.

life update

i need a new phone because this one i have keep dying on me. actually you know what i dont really need a phone since i dont use it that much. so new phone can wait. so if u cant contact me, it is not im ignoring you alrite. contact me via fb! hehe

and also i will be finishing with public health in 1 week time. after that i will be doing O&G. babies here i come!

ok thats all. babai

p/s: im 78.5 kg now. have exactly one month to lose another 5.5 kg.

public health (is why im very busy)

im doing public health rotation now. its a 8 week course, and i just finished the 5th week. have 3 more weeks to go. first two weeks is all about lecture, third week is all about planning the survey, 4th week is conducting the community survey in teluk bahang, and now i am currently attach to district health office (DHO) in seberang perai utara district for two weeks.

im not going to talk much about teluk bahang, i dont really enjoyed the whole thing, because i dont really like talking to people and all. but that was a different story. but dont get me wrong, there are still a few things that i like about teluk bahang, especially the villagers, they are super nice. (just that me myself dont like to talk) and also we get to ride the boat and there's glowing sand, really bring back redang's memory. i miss redang!

now what i really want to talk about is about the DHO posting. this week my group were attached to environmental health unit. and that unit is further divided to other smaller units. there are CDC, BAKAS, KMAM, FQC, KPAS, vector unit etc. and this last week had been so much fun and we really learn a lot. A LOT. hoho

and i personally think that what BAKAS do is the most interesting. BAKAS is bekalan air dan kesihatan persekitaran. and i want to share this because its not really medical stuff, but more towards taking care of health by improving the environment. basically what BAKAS do is:
1. water supply (bekalan air)
2. pour toilet (tandas curah)
3. sullage water management (sistem pelupusan air limbah)
4. solid waste management (sistem pelupusan sisa pepejal)

about the water supply, not many people know this, but there are still lots of people out there who cant afford to get the clean water supply. and what bakas do is giving subsidy to others who need the clean water because apparently to set up the system for getting clean water supply will cost at least rm2000. furthermore they also build toilet to those who doesnt have any toilet at their home. (and we went to this one village and there is this one toilet that bakas built, and the bakas officer said there is currently 5 family using that very same toilet. can u imagine that? dont you think that our life is too good to be true compare to them?) and it is the same for the sullage water and solid waste management, they set up better system to manage those so that people can live in clean environment. clean environment, better health. dont you think what those people did is very noble? i seriously was moved. hohoho more reasons to serve the public!



p/s: we managed to go for fogging yesterday. once in a lifetime experience!

hating the present time

now, the present time is officially sucks because i cant buy books whenever i want. because lately i've found so much good books to read but i cant afford them. it sucks big time.



p/s: if God willing, i want to go to redang island again. and hopefully can still meet the tour guide badrul, because we the ungrateful guest didnt get to say goodbye to him and i am still feeling guilty for that.

busy as a bee

i've been very busy. well actually im not that busy, (maybe not yet) but all the driving and moving around had made me very tired and hence, i feel busy. wait wait not feel busy, i am busy. lol anyway im in the process of moving on from my life. and i have taken another big step and hence nowadays i feel so restless (and again, makes me busy). im in the process of changing my number. but changing my number is a very big step. it means that im going to really say goodbye to (some) people. and i keep thinking whether its right or whether im ready. because after this, it really is goodbye. and goodbye is a sad thing. yeah so i've been restless this few days. and my leg still hurt and it still woke me up from my sleep every night. and it also the cause of my inactivity nowadays and it makes me feel guilty because i dont work out at all. and i also need to keep myself motivated to lose weight. new target now is 73 before 28/4 because i have appointment with my dietitian that day. i have a lot in my mind. huhu

i've always telling others how i am a selfish person. and i really believe that i am a selfish person. but i am also a pleaser. i tend to please people. i keep thinking because i am such a selfish person, i need to be unselfish. and i keep wanting to make everybody happy. but what makes their happy make me miserable. but i keep doing it, because i am such a pleaser. i once think that i have to finish a very crappy dinner at this one stall just because i dont want the cashier (who has been very nice to us everytime we ate there) to feel unhappy because i dont finish my food. thats how bad this sickness of pleasing people that i have. and now im thinking i want to stop. i want to be able to say no firmly, without feeling afraid of hurting others. but it is such a hard thing to do. but im gonna try. sigh. why is life so difficult and twisted.

ps: i miss baby blair
pps: i want coffee really bad.