hate is such a big word

its been how many days that i started working? 52? 80? 94? i lost count. i remember my first two weeks, its crazy, coz i was still tagging, which means i need to stay from 6 am till 10 pm every day. but during that time i honestly think that working is fun. oh well the fun part lasted about two weeks maybe? now i just hated working. well maybe not this week since I'm too free this week. ;p no wonder they say urology posting is like honeymoon period. i was free since 2.30 pm. i sat there in the ward doing nothing, waiting for 5 o'clock to come. don't hate me for that. i didn't asked to be posted in urology ;p.
besides i already suffer 1 full month in neurosurgery. when i first started in neuro 1 month back i was on the verge of tears every single day, because there was just not enough time to finish all my work before the pm round. i couldn't even do my pm review on some days!
i hated working nowadays. have i mentioned that already? I'm just so tired. and frustrated. because i couldn't get any leave this month. its tiring working 24/7 without any off day. i want my holiday! i couldn't even stay in touch with my friends because most of the time I'm too tired to reply the messages or call them. and i was always in a bad mood after i came back from work because i was hungry and tired. don't even have time to eat lunch! i lost 10 kg since i started working. but then now my weight's fluctuating coz i binge eat whenever I'm stressed. ;p and my mom keep telling me to watch my weight since its not easy to lose some but i always gave her the same reply. 'i work damn hard and now ur telling me i couldn't eat what i like?' heh.
i applied my leave for next month already hopefully it got approved. its ok if i dont get to go to ikea, the idea of doing nothing at home sounds good enough. but i really really really want to go to ausralia though. or ireland. ive been missing dublin. i wish im a med student again. minus the exam. haha
and i hate that i don't have any friends to eat lunch with. damn, i really am an anti-social! i wish i was a kid again where making friends is so much easier.

What a wonderful world.

This video/commercial brought me to tears..

Made it! MB BCh BAO

Made it as a doctor after 5 miserable years of med school!

Thank you for all the doa's and prayers, words of wisdom, hugs and kisses, support and for having my back these 5 years.


Yaay for me!

road to final

2 days before final. i started to have palpitations . and last night i was having nightmare about finals. luckily i couldn't remember what the dream was about. i wasn't really feeling the stress but i think my body feels it. because that's the only reason why my period was late (3weeks+ late) rrriiitee? i couldn't be prrreggyy rriiittee??

wish me luck guys!

Pretty / Unpretty

p/s: You can't hear the world laughing at you if you laughing harder -Bobby Cobb-

facebook

facebook is scary. i think i spent more than 3 hours on facebook each day. scary isn't it?

the scary thing about it is you didn't even realize that you spent that much time on it. i rarely stalked people, i spent most of the time playing cityville/farmville. but when i start stalking, its like i cant stop. there's so much people in it! celebrities! sportsmen! people from the past! high school sweetheart! primary school sweetheart! mom! brothers! sisters! frenemies! present people! interesting people! people who currently live in japan/korea! people who work in sarawak government hospital! people who recently got engaged/married. and so on.

a friend used to say to me that stalking people on facebook sometimes make her depressed. because somehow you think your life is not as interesting as theirs. somehow i can relate to that now.

well, now that i know stalking isn't healthy, so i definitely will stop. but how do i stop from playing farmville?

obsesi hujung minggu

mempersembahkan obsesi terbaru saya: inianwarhadi






Anyway watch his video k, and subscribe to his channel. he's kinda cool and his videos is not all talk and funny stuff, but also gave advices. Like for example the video above, is telling about how congregational prayer is better than praying alone. :)


p/s: sekarang betul2 rasa nak terbang pegi sydney sebab bajet kalo dah sampai sydney boleh jumpa inianwarhadi. bole kan inianwarhadi? bole kan? ;p

filem melayu

kenak dialog filem melayu cheesy gila babi nak mati???

why o why??

malu ok mok denga.


p/s: mok tengok CUN :(

Candles

I'm addicted to this song from Hey Monday. Watch it first in glee, a duet from Kurt and Blaine. Couldnt find that version on Youtube though.

Revenge

"I was once deceived. Moreover, I was deceived by my own blood relations. I shall never forget this. When my father was alive, they behaved like decent people. But as soon as he died they turned into scoundrels. The effect of the injury that they did me in my youth is with me still. It will be with me, I suppose, until I die. What they did to me I shall remember so long as I live. But I have never taken my revenge on them. When i think about it, I have done something much worse than that. I have not come only to hate them, but the human race in general. That is quite enough, I think."


Sensei, Kokoro by Soseki Natsume.

Glee another amazing episode

Another amazing episode from Glee this week. my few favourite moments:

Blaine to Kurt: “Kurt, there is a moment when you say to yourself, ‘Oh, there you are. I’ve been looking for you forever’” swoon.

Rachel's singing Get it right. so powerful and emotional that i cried.

Kurt and Blaine's duet. Candle's. damn sweet.

the Wablers. i love their singing scenes.

mr surgeon in the pink shirt

had teaching with mr surgeon in the pink shirt today. and surprise surprise, he did wear pink!

and the teaching was exceptionally good. and he called me sheila. just sheila, not shasheila as stated in my name tag.

and today is a very good day since mr surgeon in the pink shirt praised me. ;)

and his hands are still as pretty as ever! and he still as handsome and smart as ever. and i still like him as much as 2 years ago. and then i realized he's 37 this year. and for a second it grossed me out coz he's old. and then i realized i'm 25. and everything is ok again. haha ;)



p/s: to be fair, in my opinion i dont deserve the praise since the question he asked me is a very simple one. but am still happy. :)
pp/s: never heard of the word enterocutaneous fistula as much as this week before. its haunting us. heh.

I'm a gleek! also a bruno lover. haha

i haven't watched any glee lately. last episode that i watched is the one with Gwyneth Paltrow in it. and i thought that was like the best episode ever. but then today since i'm skipping due to pure laziness (51%) and diarrhea (49%) so i finally catch up to glee.

and 'Furt' episode is the definitely the best yet. they were doing Bruno Mars' in that episode. and since i'm hopelessly in love with Bruno nowadays, so i might be bias. hehe ;)

but seriously have you guys listened yet to bruno's album? its brilliant! and also there's this song, 'somewhere in brooklyn' (its not in the album, but u can get it in the EP) and its damn addictive. and i also like 'the lazy song'. it makes me lazy. haha

anyway just listen to me, watch Glee if u haven't watched it yet and also get a copy of Bruno's album.

And....She's back!!!!!

Everything At Once by Lenka from James Gulliver Hancock on Vimeo.

me, the reader.

sometimes when i'm with a company of a good book, i have this idea; that i want to quit everything of what i'm doing right now, and be a full time reader instead. i want to just read. and drink tea in the interval.

i am currently in a sucky mood right now, because i just read a book and the book had just has the worst ending. i'm not sure i'm mad because the writer had the need to kill the girl when they are finally happy or is it because hell i didnt see that one coming.

sigh.

its my one week chinese new year holiday and im sulking. because its a holiday and i didnt get to go home. not that doing particularly nothing other than watching lots of movie on my laptop and eating is not a bliss, but still if i had a choice i want to be home. maybe thats why i havent phone home yet since the holiday started.

anyway back to the reading topic, i found this new british author i think he's british David Nicholls. and i love his work. i had always love the guy author because the way they write is full of humor and charm and the conversations is witty yada yada yada if u get what i mean. u know, the conversation that sounds something like they conversed in the social network hehe brilliant movie by the way fucking love it. err this started to sound that im rambling like a maniac so im off now. tata and happy chinese new year!!!!! and i fucking love Jay Chou! o yeah!

25

I'm 25 now. :)

There is nothing else that i'm wishing for other than to pass my final exam in June. Please please please God make it come true. Amin.

I havent had my birthday celebration yet (meaning i haven't blow out candles and haven't had my birthday cake). So i'm going to secret recipe to buy myself a cake later.

Thank you for all the wishes and gifts! :)


p/s: totally didnt freak out by age-ing now. haha