satu tahun

i miss u too much these few days. too much that i feel like stalking ur fb but i didnt. i feel like texting or calling but i cant. im scared that u'll hate me if i do so. (and also because i lost ur no. heh)

i dreamt of you yesterday morning. and i was actually happy because we were ok again but then i get up (because i have to pee) and then i realized it was just a dream and after a year (almost) i still miss u too damn much.

first time i fall in love

i was watching prosecutor princess, and there was this scene that prosecutor yoon asked prosecutor jun to marry him using a rabbit soft toy that can sing 'will u marry me bla bla bla...' and attached to the rabbit red muffler (rabbit is using muffler you see) is a ring.

i remember few years back i bought a soft toy. it was white and have a big heart at the centre and when u press the heart it let out phrase 'i love you'. hee so tacky. :D

but of course i never gave the person that i like at the time that thing. im too shy to do so. but that was the first time that i bought a present for someone that i like. u know that feeling, shy, excited but embarrassed at the same time. its the first time i ever felt like that.

oh well im too naive at the time. ;P


p/s: happy ramadhan! :)

i havent blog for so long

1. i havent blog for so long. just finished paeds exam last friday. and im still recovering from feeling traumatized by the short case exam. i think i did okay in eliciting signs but the description part im totally out. and for the second case till today i still cant get the diagnosis for the syndrom that the child have. lets just pray hard that i passed the exam because i dont feel like going back to do it once more.

2. now im doing psychiatry rotation. i dont like it. i spend most of the time during the lecture playing games with my phone. i cant help it, either i feel very sleepy or i feel bored. but the drug lecture just now is quite ok. but i always like pharmacology anyway so it doesnt mean that im starting to like psych.

3. ok i am now very sleepy but i still want to go on typing crap.

4. i just bought new shawl grey in colour just now. and it is so pretty. its cotton. i feel pretty wearing it. haha

5. i went into borders just now. havent been into it for a veryyyyy long time. i fucking like borders. mixed emotion i had just now. feel like crying, happy but sad at the same time, elated maybe with wild euphoria as well. because borders is just toooo aweeesooommeee. too fucking awesome that i feel like living there for the rest of my life. even better if i can work there. i dont mind commute from pulau tikus to queensbay everyday if i can work there. anyway i found something really awesome just now at borders. i found kokoro by natsume soseki. it is one of my favorite book ever. and i've been looking the book in english for years. YEARS ok. and i finally found it! of course i didnt buy it because i dont have the money. its fucking expensive rm 63 for a normal size paperback. can u imagine buying a paperback for rm63? its new translation!!!!!!!!!! 2010 punya edition. this dicovery is fucking epic. hoho exaggerate much? lol i dont care. anyway i read kokoro in malay when i was in KMB and its like one of the best novel that i've ever read. i fucking love it. eventho it was a malay translation back then and it is for our malay literature class. but still it was awesome! i want it i want it i want it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont think i can sleep tonight coz im too excited about it.

6. im starting to read again. ive stopped for quite some time and i think the last novel that i read is catcher in the rye by jd salinger. a very very good book.

7. i cant find my books the curious incident of a dog in night time and a thousand of splendid suns. did anybody borrow it from me?

8. ok dah malas nak pk and tulis and edit this thing. bye. gudnite.