season finale spoiler alert!!!

and the winner for the best season finale goes to:
actually its a tie between private practice and grey's anatomy.

private practice recap:
cooper and charlotte is engage!!!!
dell died when everyone is focusing on maya and her baby. that is too cruel for betsy. cant stop crying watching this finale. :(
addison and pete are finished. and pete and violet are together again? and finally sam and addi are together. i hate it! i love pete and addi!! huu

grey's anat recap:
meredith's pregnant! and later had a miscarriage. sad :(
derek was shot!
cristina and owen and teddy. yawn. move on please? i want cristina to be with jackson? lol
mark and lexie and alex. another yawn.
bailey and mandy moore (cant remember the character's name) and charlie? (cant remember the mercy west doc also) sad and very good scene!!!
reed died too fast and it was fucking crazy. head shot! dem i'm so traumatized by this.
and arizona and callie are back together again. well im not a fan of lesbian scene. why dont they make a gay scene next season? lol

yawn season finale:
house and gossip girl.

house:
fat embolism? hoho i kinda expect it.
and house and cuddy are together now. and it just dont work out for me. cuddy didnt really show that she actually like house.
and wats up with thirteen? huntingtons setting in is it?
big yawn this finale.

gossip girl:
chuck and blair ooh.. chuck was shot. but dont worry i read from the spoiler that he will not died, he will definitely came back next season. and she didnt get to hear the proposal! dem yu jenny humphrey. im so glad that you will be gone for a very long time. what a bitch. and oh yea, georgina is pregnant. and i really hope that they just let serena to settle down. nate-dan-dan-nate-nate-dan??? make up ur mind woman. and wadefak with dan? he likes serena again?? so twisted and fucked up. i hate gossip girl!!!!!!! maybe i'll stop watching next season. its too ridiculous.

and now i have to finish my case write up. lol

p/s: the only reason i hate summer is because all the series will stopped airing for 3 months and i was left with no series to watch now. :(
pp/s: no. of series watched this season is cut down to 5. i let so many series go. sigh. been busy. :(
ppp/s: the 5th one is glee. ;)

teacher's day

happy teacher's day to the surgeon in a purple shirt.


p/s: my uncle past away early this morning. hope the family will be strong during this difficult period. al fatihah.

of dying (and death)

my uncle is very sick. dying. and i dont know what to do. or what to say. im always bad with this sort of things. i really dont know what to say to his family, to my sister, or to my mom when they told me about him.

my sister and i have a lot of conversation about him. and i never felt comfortable talking about it. that sometimes my reply seems a little bit cold because its too fact-ful and realistic. i wish im better at this.

hard time

at a hard time like this i wish that clock will just stop ticking and the world will just stop moving. and i want to be stuck here at present time forever, cant go backward and refusing to move forward.

random secret #2

i've been here in penang for one year+ but up till today i never had penang laksa.

vocab for today

Winkle Pickers.

of anger

dont know whether its the bad sate that i ate at padang brown just now, or whether because i had my period or whether it is because i feel shy towards dr megat because i told him the wrong topic for today's teaching just now, today i feel less angry.

random secret #1

occasionally at random times i put hujan feat. raihan's raya song in my wmp playlist and listen to it eventho its not raya season. -.-

a letter to a 14 year old me

dear 14 year old sheila,

as you grow older, u will find that some things doesnt occur as you thought it will be. u will came across few things that u never thought will happened, and few things that u never think will affect you deeply, things that you thought you hate but only later to find that you love it.

you always think of Paris and Eiffel tower as cliche and only for hopeless romantic and when people say they want to visit Paris you wanted to puke your stomach out. but only later you know that it is actually romantic and breathtaking and it will be one of your favourite city. and Eiffel is so magnificent that your heart literally stop for a few seconds when u saw it for the first time. (eventhough it is only made of steel).

you always thought that you are a forgiving person but you only realize at age 23 that actually you are not. and when you were hurt deeply it takes a very long time for the scar to heal.

you always thought that you wanted to be a surgeon. and when you enter surgical rotation you actually believe that surgery is your soul mate. but then you havent met obs and gynae at that time. and you always thought that obs and gynae is the 2nd biggest cliche after paris and you will only realize that you actually like obs and gynae a bit too much once you enter 2nd week of your obs and gynae rotation. you like it too much that sometimes it hurts. (lol) and you realize that babies are beautiful and they dont look like a one day old mice at all. and you will also realize that you dont want to give birth by caesarian section because you worry that you might die due to pulmonary embolism because its too painful after that you dont want too move at all.

you will never thought that you actually cannot drive manual car. and the fact that you will only get your license when you're 20, not 17 like you always thought.

and the most shocking thing is that you hate learning mandarin eventhough it has always been your dream to learn it. you'll hate it so much that you feel like crying everytime you want to go to mandarin class.

you will never believe it but you will actually get a chance to study abroad. before this every time you saw the salam perantauan column in newspapers during raya season you always said that you want to study abroad but even then you never really thinking about it. and what you did not expect the most is the fact that you dont have a really good time there and you were miserable almost all the time.

you will never believe it when i say that you will eventually evolve from an extrovert to an introvert.

thats all i can think about now. i shall write to you again once im wiser and older. hahaha take care of yourself and just bear with school. i know how much you hate it.

p/s: skip clasess as much as you want because you will never get into trouble from it.

love,
a 24 year old you.