cheap stationaries...

i hate cheap stationaries. i never compromised when it comes to stationaries. i always pick the best one, the best usually come with great price, but not always expensive. i believe pilot is the best pen around, (i've been using pilot BPS-GP made in japan since form 4) i dont use other brand, and for eraser pentel is the best. and for mechanical pencil's lead, i believe everybody will agree with me, for opting for buncho. pilot shaker~ genius creation! and comes with all the colourful colours. i love shaker!!

but recently, what with the financial crisis i'd been forced to buy the cheap one. the real value label. i end up buying cheap stapler+staples that sometimes work, sometimes dont and two-hole-puncher that only work "unihole". that really pissed me off! its fine with me if its working, but the problem with made-in-china products is that it can be very lousy. (no offence to china products, but the merchandise that i bought is made in china)

as from now on, i vow to myself that i'll never bought real value stuff anymore.

insomnia...

i might have a sleeping problem. its very hard for me to fall asleep these few days. last night and the night before, i blame the 'bunyi angin'. but tonight? no angin at all. its such a silent night, but here i am, struggling very hard to sleep.



its my brother's birthday today. i tried calling him but he didnt pick up, for sure he's still sleeping. i suddenly teringat mom's laksa sarawak today. she cooked laksa every year when it comes to rezal's and my birthday. maybe i should cook laksa this weekend. okeh. self reminder: go buy bihun and limau kasturi.



i've been thinking about my birthday present. what do i want for my 22nd birthday? duvet cover? bed sheet? study lamp? actually i want high heels. for real! yeah maybe i'll get myself a pair of high heels, as soon as i get the allowance for next month. my mom will be pissed. haha she's been monitoring what type of shoes that i bought all these years. n so far i only have one pair (of high heels), all because of her objection with the famous statement 'kelak tergugok make kasut tinggi (nanti jatuh pakai kasut tinggi)' she did have a good reason for saying that though, its because i always injured myself whenever i wear the wrong pair of shoes or sandals (the non-flat one, even though its only half-inch high). its like the only thing that i can wear without injuring myself is selipar jepun and trainers. haha even pakai sport shoes pun boleh jatuh gak ari tu masa jalan kat atas snow kat salburg. i need a new shoes, tapak dah x grip. huhu i remember masa jalan2 ngan wanie at labuan few years back, i tripped almost 10 times. what a freak!



errgh this entry is so boring. i cant think of anything interesting to write. nak buat review movie? its been a month since the last time i saw one. ps i love you. i heard they havent show the movie in malaysia. hmm the movie wasnt that bad, wasnt that good either. its forgettable, thats all i can say. i have a good time while watching it, i cry when the husband die, then laugh during the funeral scene (was it funeral or memorial?) then cry some more when holly miss gerry, then laugh some more when gerry left holly with something stupid to do. and smile widely whenever holly get a new letter from gerry, seriously the way gerry left all the letters, its very very very sweet. but like i said, the movie is forgettable, once ur out of the cinema u forget who holly was. u forget how sweet gerry was, u forget their love story. its not haunting. but the movie is more interesting than the book though.



hmm its getting late. i guess i better try to sleep once more, but before that try calling my brother once more. i hope he'll pick up this time. daa~

dark period

that period has finally come. the period where u just lying on your bed doing nothing for the whole week, the period where u just stop talking to anyone, the period where u switch off ur phone because u dont want to receive any messages or else u r oblige to reply it. that period. dark period i called it.

i've been thinking why am i so unhappy? here's why:

1. money problem. i have financial difficulties all the time (yup, all the time despite the fact that i'm not even a shopaholic. i wonder where all the money go) and now the new term is starting in a few days time and i realized that i dont even have enough money to buy monthly-bus ticket. pathetic? i kno.

2. catfight with my sis. this one is related to problem no 1. she asked me to send her something and i'm so pissed off that i said i dont have money in a very "kurang ajar" way. i told her i'm sorry the day after but until now i havent received her forgiveness. its already been 4 days since the stupid argument.

3. the love of my life had been ignoring me. the love of my life, (thats what i want to call him in here) he's not my boyfriend or anything, but i've been in love with him for forever and ever amen. he's been ignoring me lately, treating me like crap, stop texting and ym-ing me, and i decided that i'm done with chasing. i've been miserable ever since. :'(

4. new term. errgh new term start this monday, i'm not ready to say goodbye to my holiday. holiday is bliss. anyone agree?

5. no reason. yeah i reckoned that i have no reason at all for being in this dark period. not that i havent come in contact with all the 4 reasons i stated above. i have. n everytime i survived. this dark period is just the excuse for me to be miserable. (hey in my defense i actually tried to overcome it by going window shopping yesterday, and baking choc cake, its just not helping)

let me share u my last year dark period experience. it involved a box of tissue, ps i love you novel and 24 hours of non-stop crying. i dont know whether the novel is that sad or i'm just mentally unstable.

so what do i do to chase away this year dark period?

p/s: this is my first post and i already posting my dark thoughts, not a very warm welcome huh?