its been how many days that i started working? 52? 80? 94? i lost count. i remember my first two weeks, its crazy, coz i was still tagging, which means i need to stay from 6 am till 10 pm every day. but during that time i honestly think that working is fun. oh well the fun part lasted about two weeks maybe? now i just hated working. well maybe not this week since I'm too free this week. ;p no wonder they say urology posting is like honeymoon period. i was free since 2.30 pm. i sat there in the ward doing nothing, waiting for 5 o'clock to come. don't hate me for that. i didn't asked to be posted in urology ;p.
besides i already suffer 1 full month in neurosurgery. when i first started in neuro 1 month back i was on the verge of tears every single day, because there was just not enough time to finish all my work before the pm round. i couldn't even do my pm review on some days!
i hated working nowadays. have i mentioned that already? I'm just so tired. and frustrated. because i couldn't get any leave this month. its tiring working 24/7 without any off day. i want my holiday! i couldn't even stay in touch with my friends because most of the time I'm too tired to reply the messages or call them. and i was always in a bad mood after i came back from work because i was hungry and tired. don't even have time to eat lunch! i lost 10 kg since i started working. but then now my weight's fluctuating coz i binge eat whenever I'm stressed. ;p and my mom keep telling me to watch my weight since its not easy to lose some but i always gave her the same reply. 'i work damn hard and now ur telling me i couldn't eat what i like?' heh.
i applied my leave for next month already hopefully it got approved. its ok if i dont get to go to ikea, the idea of doing nothing at home sounds good enough. but i really really really want to go to ausralia though. or ireland. ive been missing dublin. i wish im a med student again. minus the exam. haha
and i hate that i don't have any friends to eat lunch with. damn, i really am an anti-social! i wish i was a kid again where making friends is so much easier.
