dark period

that period has finally come. the period where u just lying on your bed doing nothing for the whole week, the period where u just stop talking to anyone, the period where u switch off ur phone because u dont want to receive any messages or else u r oblige to reply it. that period. dark period i called it.

i've been thinking why am i so unhappy? here's why:

1. money problem. i have financial difficulties all the time (yup, all the time despite the fact that i'm not even a shopaholic. i wonder where all the money go) and now the new term is starting in a few days time and i realized that i dont even have enough money to buy monthly-bus ticket. pathetic? i kno.

2. catfight with my sis. this one is related to problem no 1. she asked me to send her something and i'm so pissed off that i said i dont have money in a very "kurang ajar" way. i told her i'm sorry the day after but until now i havent received her forgiveness. its already been 4 days since the stupid argument.

3. the love of my life had been ignoring me. the love of my life, (thats what i want to call him in here) he's not my boyfriend or anything, but i've been in love with him for forever and ever amen. he's been ignoring me lately, treating me like crap, stop texting and ym-ing me, and i decided that i'm done with chasing. i've been miserable ever since. :'(

4. new term. errgh new term start this monday, i'm not ready to say goodbye to my holiday. holiday is bliss. anyone agree?

5. no reason. yeah i reckoned that i have no reason at all for being in this dark period. not that i havent come in contact with all the 4 reasons i stated above. i have. n everytime i survived. this dark period is just the excuse for me to be miserable. (hey in my defense i actually tried to overcome it by going window shopping yesterday, and baking choc cake, its just not helping)

let me share u my last year dark period experience. it involved a box of tissue, ps i love you novel and 24 hours of non-stop crying. i dont know whether the novel is that sad or i'm just mentally unstable.

so what do i do to chase away this year dark period?

p/s: this is my first post and i already posting my dark thoughts, not a very warm welcome huh?