Too fast

Sleeping but not sleeping. 

Migraine.

Depressing haruki's.

Time moves too damn fast.

Sigh.

hate is such a big word

its been how many days that i started working? 52? 80? 94? i lost count. i remember my first two weeks, its crazy, coz i was still tagging, which means i need to stay from 6 am till 10 pm every day. but during that time i honestly think that working is fun. oh well the fun part lasted about two weeks maybe? now i just hated working. well maybe not this week since I'm too free this week. ;p no wonder they say urology posting is like honeymoon period. i was free since 2.30 pm. i sat there in the ward doing nothing, waiting for 5 o'clock to come. don't hate me for that. i didn't asked to be posted in urology ;p.
besides i already suffer 1 full month in neurosurgery. when i first started in neuro 1 month back i was on the verge of tears every single day, because there was just not enough time to finish all my work before the pm round. i couldn't even do my pm review on some days!
i hated working nowadays. have i mentioned that already? I'm just so tired. and frustrated. because i couldn't get any leave this month. its tiring working 24/7 without any off day. i want my holiday! i couldn't even stay in touch with my friends because most of the time I'm too tired to reply the messages or call them. and i was always in a bad mood after i came back from work because i was hungry and tired. don't even have time to eat lunch! i lost 10 kg since i started working. but then now my weight's fluctuating coz i binge eat whenever I'm stressed. ;p and my mom keep telling me to watch my weight since its not easy to lose some but i always gave her the same reply. 'i work damn hard and now ur telling me i couldn't eat what i like?' heh.
i applied my leave for next month already hopefully it got approved. its ok if i dont get to go to ikea, the idea of doing nothing at home sounds good enough. but i really really really want to go to ausralia though. or ireland. ive been missing dublin. i wish im a med student again. minus the exam. haha
and i hate that i don't have any friends to eat lunch with. damn, i really am an anti-social! i wish i was a kid again where making friends is so much easier.

What a wonderful world.

This video/commercial brought me to tears..

Made it! MB BCh BAO

Made it as a doctor after 5 miserable years of med school!

Thank you for all the doa's and prayers, words of wisdom, hugs and kisses, support and for having my back these 5 years.


Yaay for me!

road to final

2 days before final. i started to have palpitations . and last night i was having nightmare about finals. luckily i couldn't remember what the dream was about. i wasn't really feeling the stress but i think my body feels it. because that's the only reason why my period was late (3weeks+ late) rrriiitee? i couldn't be prrreggyy rriiittee??

wish me luck guys!

Pretty / Unpretty

p/s: You can't hear the world laughing at you if you laughing harder -Bobby Cobb-

facebook

facebook is scary. i think i spent more than 3 hours on facebook each day. scary isn't it?

the scary thing about it is you didn't even realize that you spent that much time on it. i rarely stalked people, i spent most of the time playing cityville/farmville. but when i start stalking, its like i cant stop. there's so much people in it! celebrities! sportsmen! people from the past! high school sweetheart! primary school sweetheart! mom! brothers! sisters! frenemies! present people! interesting people! people who currently live in japan/korea! people who work in sarawak government hospital! people who recently got engaged/married. and so on.

a friend used to say to me that stalking people on facebook sometimes make her depressed. because somehow you think your life is not as interesting as theirs. somehow i can relate to that now.

well, now that i know stalking isn't healthy, so i definitely will stop. but how do i stop from playing farmville?